29 October 2020
It’s been about nine months since my last post on this blog. It’s a blog post about change. I thought that 2020 was going to be a different year. A year in which I would launch a couple of products, change my career and get stuck into a new voluntary role that I accepted a few months earlier.
Then the year took a strange turn.
I found myself working from home. I found myself helping the kids get their school work done during the day. I found myself scheduling in walks in for the week as it was the only time we, as a family, got to spend time together outside. I found myself glued to news coverage of the pandemic.
And while there were parts during this time that were great, there was also change happening that I didn’t see coming. I simply stopped doing many of the things that I wanted to do.
I stopped blogging.
The activity on my blog hit a level where I wondered if it is worth continuing with it or any of the online networks that I am a part of. Every couple of weeks, I feel I should wipe the internet slate clean of my presence. A chance to start over or an opportunity to simply walk away from my digital self? I still haven’t decided, but the fact that I am writing this says that part of me wants to keep this outlet going.
I stopped limiting my time on social media.
When the lockdown started, I started spending more time scrolling through Twitter and Instagram. Every single day, I ended up spending hours on social media. I ended up deleting my Instagram account, thinking this would make things better. I’m left with Twitter now and scroll through Twitter the same way that I scrolled through Instagram.
I stopped journaling.
When the national lockdown started in March, I stopped journaling, and I never returned to it. Eventually, a few weeks ago, I put my mostly empty Hobonichi Techo planner in the bin. The first time in four years in which I gave up on journaling.
I stopped working on products.
In the last few months, I’ve struggled to find the want to write or code again. I know I need to write code in some form to maintain the career I have at the moment, but the urge is not there.
These things that I have stopped doing, however, can be started again. I can start blogging again, as I am writing this post. I can begin to limit my time on social media by finding other apps and ways of interacting with Twitter. I can start journaling again with a notebook and pen. I can start working on products also by just taking it a step at a time. And I don’t need to wait for the new year to begin to do this. I can do it today, tomorrow or even next week.
Although this year hasn’t been great for positive changes, there’s still time to do something about it.